Saturday, June 07, 2008

what have i got myself into?

I am starting to get really nervous about the idea of two children to care for. I am watching baby Ella this afternoon (she is 6 months old) and the reality of having two sunk in real fast and I don't know if I am ready. I am afraid, very afraid. I keep thinking, other people have done it, why can't I, but I am still afraid of having two. I realized how spoiled Lance and I are, or should I say how spoiled I am with just having one, one that can play by himself, walk, somewhat communicate his needs, be somewhat predictable, sleep all night, and now we are going to throw a unpredictable, non-sleeping, can't do anything for itself baby into the mix. It won't be just the two of us anymore, it won't be let's walk out the door and head to the park or let's play, we will have to deal with a baby. Oh my goodness, what have I got myself into?


Randi said...

These feelings are all VERY normal. If you weren't scared, I'd be worried;) It would mean you are not human;)

I have SO many friends with two (some more) and honesty they had the same fears as you are having right now. And they would tell me the truth. That in the beginning it's hard, BUT soon you get yet another routine down that works for you and the kids.

It will probably be crazy at first, but you seem like a wonderful mommy. I know things will work out for you. Thankfully Lance is a good little boy and will most likely he your little helper;)


donna said...

I can't speak from experience, but I'm guessing it's just like with the first one, where you are all stressed and trying to figure out your way at first, but within a few days you get a routine going and you figure it out. Oh, and you take every single bit of help that is offered to you!

You can do it. You will do it. And soon you'll be able to do it with an infant in one arm!


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