Saturday, June 07, 2008
what have i got myself into?
I am starting to get really nervous about the idea of two children to care for. I am watching baby Ella this afternoon (she is 6 months old) and the reality of having two sunk in real fast and I don't know if I am ready. I am afraid, very afraid. I keep thinking, other people have done it, why can't I, but I am still afraid of having two. I realized how spoiled Lance and I are, or should I say how spoiled I am with just having one, one that can play by himself, walk, somewhat communicate his needs, be somewhat predictable, sleep all night, and now we are going to throw a unpredictable, non-sleeping, can't do anything for itself baby into the mix. It won't be just the two of us anymore, it won't be let's walk out the door and head to the park or let's play, we will have to deal with a baby. Oh my goodness, what have I got myself into?