my heart goes out

To the women who have to go through the financial meeting and the nurse visit and then not be pregnant, it seems quite traumatic. Today I had the nurse visit. I had to fill out a questionnaire and we went over my medical history and any symptoms I have been having so far. I received paperwork about save dental procedures and drugs, consent forms for testing, a pregnancy book, and information about the birth center then I had urine test and blood taken. Both nurses said congratulations, and I thanked them and thought, it is weird, we haven't even seen if there is a baby yet, nor listened for a heartbeat, nothing, how do they even know there is something there. My heart aches for the women that I know and those I don't know who go through all this just to get to the ultrasound day and have there be nothing, all of this information and congratulations and it all ends in heartache. I think I could deal with a miscarriage or loss easier if you knew right away instead of having to go through all this other stuff. Jeff made a good point the other day, you could go through all of this without actually being pregnant, you just have to say you are and they take your word for it. I don't know why someone would want to, but it is possible.
I would like to think that of the 5 tubes of blood that one of them would be testing hormone levels, but who knows what all they are testing. I guess I think it should work like this: have ultrasound, then do the testing and money aspect, but I guess they want to make sure they have the money worked out first because you know money is the most important, note sarcasm. So I now have to sit and wait for 11 days until I FINALLY get to go to the doctor and see the baby. For me, this whole thing doesn't seem real, despite feeling ill and getting a bit of a tummy, I don't feel pregnant, it doesn't seem real yet. On a positive note: despite being worried about the blood test it wasn't as bad as I feared, it didn't take that long and I didn't feel woozy till I was practically home and was able to drink something sweet. I hate needles so I am excited that I have one blood test down, two more to go, but I have to admit, getting it taken out of the arm is a lot better than the finger prick, well, my arm is still a little sore so that might be debatable.