a little of this a little of that

One thing comes off my plate and more comes on.
I can check a paper off my to do list
and I can add, finish snapfish calendars for Christmas on,
there are just not enough hours in the day.


On a total random note I need to vent.  I am frustrated.
I am tired of juvenile behavior.
I am tired of  "hurt feelings" and victimization and tick-for-tack behavior in some of the people I know. 
Why is it wrong for one person to do something, but perfectly acceptable for another?
Why do hurt people hurt people? 
I realize that a lot of people still act as though they are in high school.
Then again most people only read on a 9 grade reading level and most newspapers and publications are on a 5th grade level so we don't set our expectations high.
It's just make me sad how self-absorbed people are- how people only think about themselves anymore and never try and understand anyone else.
Everything is always everyone else's fault.
Am I the only one who says I am not right, I will take some blame, but I am not going to take it all????

stressed

I have no good excuse but I have one week until I have due:
1- a paper about the book Isaac Storm
2- a curriculum unit on a meteorology topic (never taught Earth Science so starting from scratch)
3- a scientific study paper and activity for the classroom (haven't finished the study yet start it)
4- a curriculum unit for an ecology topic (started this but I just need to sit down and organize everything)
5- a classroom demonstration on something from the ecology curriculum unit
then to add to it, I am working all day today so I won't have a Saturday afternoon to work and yesterday afternoon the kids didn't nap so I am feeling a bit overwhelmed right now- 10 days for 5 things- that is 2 days a thing- Yikes!

it's been awhile

It's been a long time since I have had any free time, been so busy with work, school work, kids, making ornaments, just doing life. 
I can't believe it is almost Thanksgiving and fall has come and almost gone, life is going at a warp speed and I would like things to slow down a bit, it hopefully will in a few weeks when my classes are done, I only have 1 class next semester, thank goodness, I have been swamped with school since May.  I will probably have a busy summer of grad classes and then a full fall semester and then hopefully I will be done.
Though I am really enjoying grad school and not sure I want it to be over with.  I enjoy studying and learning, I enjoying talking and being around different people, being something more than mommy.  Though I do feel guilty because I am not always engaged with my children because I am working on work or schoolwork and though I am there, I am not always there.
It has been really hard to find balance, balancing being a mother, but also a person.  It is frustrating because life is not what I want it to be or even how I imagined it.  I didn't think that we would be struggling financially and I would be working from home as well as going to school and I naively thought I would be the stereotypical 50's housewife who was in domestic bliss.  If I am going to be honest, I am not satisfied with domestic bliss and want something more, just how to balance it all is tough.